When I came back from my short vacation, I had a very interesting meeting with Rie Asagiri to talk about my first year as a domina and where I will be going from now. I had some moments of doubts and wonders in June and wasn't sure exactly what was happening. Something was shifting, but I was not ready to face it. The vacation helped and forced me to think about my next steps in the agency and meeting with Rie san also helped me. We concluded that I needed tho polish my skills more. Since I enjoy a plethora of plays, it was difficult to choose which plays I wanted to put the most energy in getting more skilled. Many of you already know my love for candle wax and my new passion for electric devices. But then I realised that during my first year, I didn't practice the whips or nawa much. And that idea that these skills were lost on me, made me reconsider some aspects of myself and my plays. As a visual learner, I decided to watch the skilled dominas of our agency m...
How does it feel to be down at the very bottom—the place they call the lowest of the low? I don’t think it’s ever easy to place yourself completely beneath someone else, or to willingly become their toy. Lately, my days have been filled with masochists who proudly choose such pitiful names for themselves as “the lowest of the low” or “inferior masochist.” Of course, I’m fully aware that I’m partly responsible for guiding them in that direction, because those are exactly the kinds of people I happen to like. And yet, no matter how much someone presents themselves as being “lower,” I sometimes casually wonder whether the true bottom is actually much, much farther down than any of us imagine. If there is such a thing a thing as a true rock bottom, the reason we have yet to reach it is because we have both have lives outside of this. But isn’t it only natural to want to be made that way—to want to experience that kind of submission? So, what I’m reminded of once again is this: For you true...