I like to push. When I say, “I want to do this,” and a masochist frowns, I love it when he doesn’t say “yes” too easily. If I can feel that he is not ready to give in, I feel like blood is flowing through my whole body. It makes me feel alive again. I want to see if there is room to push him mentally. I also enjoy watching his face while he desperately thinks of an excuse to avoid doing what I want. When he says “no,” I enjoy thinking about what excuse I can use to make him say “yes.” The moment he realizes, “This Mistress is never going to give up,” and finally gives up and accepts what I want, is a very sweet moment for me. But that moment passes very quickly. Because I want to enjoy that one little drop of delicious juice, I have to use my brain as much as I can. That’s why I don’t like men who immediately do everything I say. I want to enjoy the process of making them say “yes.” I used to be too impatient. I wanted them to say “yes” right away. But now, I can wait calmly, like a cr...
As I wrote in a previous blog, I see myself as probably being a bit too kind for a domina, sometimes. I know empathy is a great quality, but I feared it might have taken over during sessions. I realised that if a sub is extremely soft and kind I tend to be the same. But when a sub is a bit Brady. I become kind of mean. I adapt to my sub's behavior. Some of them need a domina with a strong character that mistreats them. Others need a softer domina that takes care of them, and I have been trying to find that perfect balance for my sessions. A sub of mine tried being a bit bratty with me, just to see what would happen, and at that moment, the session became even more fun, because he discovered another side of me. He called himself a princess, and so to be treated like one. The beauty of Japanese language is that a dominatrix is called a queen. I attached him from the legs in a pretty uncomfortable position, his face on the level of my boots and taught him a lesson, showe...