That whole sense of “gender reversal” when I’m engaging in anal play really hits one of my biggest kinks. A masochist once asked me, “When you’re using a strap-on on me, mistress HIBARI, you don’t really think of me as a man, do you…?” But if anything, while I’m doing it, I think what I want is simply to awaken a feminine feeling in the masochist. Through my commands and the words I say to him, I want to pull both his senses and his consciousness away from those of an ordinary man, and turn him into a madman drowning in pleasure. But, as you said, my own feelings also change in response to the masochists’ reactions and words, so I suppose it really is a kind of perversion that depends on communication. The strange thing is, when I’m using my fingers to loosen him up or stimulating his prostate, I feel as though I’m giving him a handjob; and when I’m using a strap-on, I look into his face as he’s completely overwhelmed, and I feel as though I’m the one taking him. It’s called “ple...
I like to push. When I say, “I want to do this,” and a masochist frowns, I love it when he doesn’t say “yes” too easily. If I can feel that he is not ready to give in, I feel like blood is flowing through my whole body. It makes me feel alive again. I want to see if there is room to push him mentally. I also enjoy watching his face while he desperately thinks of an excuse to avoid doing what I want. When he says “no,” I enjoy thinking about what excuse I can use to make him say “yes.” The moment he realizes, “This Mistress is never going to give up,” and finally gives up and accepts what I want, is a very sweet moment for me. But that moment passes very quickly. Because I want to enjoy that one little drop of delicious juice, I have to use my brain as much as I can. That’s why I don’t like men who immediately do everything I say. I want to enjoy the process of making them say “yes.” I used to be too impatient. I wanted them to say “yes” right away. But now, I can wait calmly, like a cr...