I realized during this session that I really enjoy unhinged subs. There is something very animal when they fully let go to their fantasies and into pushing themselves to some extremes. During this double session with Mistress Hikaru, this sub wanted to push his pain threshold and limits. The more we flogged him or spanked him, the more he wanted it. It was amazing to have him beg for more while knowing he was in unbearable pain. Squeezing his neck between my calves so he wouldn't run away, Mistress Hikaru and I spanked him until he couldn't take it anymore, we went so hard he reached a point where he started to shake. But the most interesting moment was when we suspended him by the wrists in front of the mirror and flogged him. He started acting absolutely crazy, which was amazing and seemed very liberating, like this side of him only wanted to get out and be free. I do believe it helped make the pain more bearable. I love pushing the limits of the subs and marki...
That whole sense of “gender reversal” when I’m engaging in anal play really hits one of my biggest kinks. A masochist once asked me, “When you’re using a strap-on on me, mistress HIBARI, you don’t really think of me as a man, do you…?” But if anything, while I’m doing it, I think what I want is simply to awaken a feminine feeling in the masochist. Through my commands and the words I say to him, I want to pull both his senses and his consciousness away from those of an ordinary man, and turn him into a madman drowning in pleasure. But, as you said, my own feelings also change in response to the masochists’ reactions and words, so I suppose it really is a kind of perversion that depends on communication. The strange thing is, when I’m using my fingers to loosen him up or stimulating his prostate, I feel as though I’m giving him a handjob; and when I’m using a strap-on, I look into his face as he’s completely overwhelmed, and I feel as though I’m the one taking him. It’s called “ple...